The one thing that pops into my head whenever I hear the words “growing up” is: I don’t want to. Now, I know that may sound unhealthy (and maybe it is), but I don’t mean that I want to stay a child forever and never have new experiences or change in any way. What I mean is I don’t want to lose that part of myself that looks at the world with curiosity and wonder, that is unafraid to be goofy, that runs as far from cynicism as humanly possible. The older I get, the more I find myself surrounded by people who have become so jaded that having fun and being playful are looked at as qualities of the ridiculous. And at times, I have let this get to me and I start to feel inferior, as if I am somehow less of an adult because of the way I view the world. I have responsibilities, bills to pay, obligations to uphold like every other person, and I take them seriously, but I refuse to sacrifice my inner child just to be considered an adult. If I’ve begun to learn one thing over the years, it is that the purpose of living is to relish being alive. And no one does that better than a child.
I am here today with a quick list of some of the things I’ve been loving this fall. I won’t go into much detail because I’m pressed for time today but I do think everything on this list is great!
- Musicals! I am loving Hamilton and Finding Neverland. The cast recordings are phenomenal so check them out if you haven’t yet.
- Netflix! This fall I binged on How To Get Away With Murder and Jessica Jones and Broadchurch season 2.
- Books! Read the Robert Galbraith mysteries starting with The Cuckoo’s Calling and Uprooted by Naomi Novik.
- Movies! The Battle of the Five Armies Extended Edition is wonderful!
- I don’t have a fifth category! I just like lists of five.
Bye! ( I know, I know, I’ve been away for too long again!)
This land that I call home.
My heart beats in time with the vibrations beneath this specific patch of earth.
It is a part of me
And I, it, like the roots of a tree.
We are intertwined, as necessary to each other as sun to the leaves.
I am built from its soil.
At night its breath sings me to sleep.
And I know that while I may roam to far off mountains,
and drink in the lakes journeys away,
this is where I belong.
This is where my spirit dances.
“Life throws these things at us. Life makes us wonder if we should be less naive, less childlike, less enthusiastic, less excitable. These things are looked down on when we grow up. And I guess what I’m trying to tell you is that the way that you’re dancing tonight yes, it’s childlike, enthusiastic and excitable and it’s BEAUTIFUL. That’s how I want you to live your life.”
Taylor Swift in Glendale, Arizona (8/18/15)
I was five years old when my grandfather died.
For most of my life I have been without him.
But when I look in the mirror,
His nose and cheekbones reflect back at me
surrounding the forest eyes of his daughter.
The temper I try so hard to master is a legacy of his,
and my mind as well,
whether I am wasting it or not.
Would he be proud of me, of the woman I am becoming?
The woman who so desperately longs for the courage he had when he was sent to war
and didn’t run.
Who wishes for his tenacity, his goodness, his integrity.
Did he lie awake at night with worries for his life
or did he simply live it?
This man, the only man my grandmother could ever fall in love with,
This man who needed no recognition or permission,
When I look in the mirror, I see his face.
I hope my heart resembles his too.
I sit in solitude by the window
as the wind rustles the leaves outside.
The smell of summer is in the air
And of rain.
The thirsty trees turn their leaves to the sky in hopeful prayer.
I wonder as I watch the leaves shift and dance,
how anyone could want to be anywhere else?
How I could want to be anywhere else?
But I find I have not yet learned contentment,
a virtue in everything but title,
and restlessness hums inside my bones.
Not always, but sometimes.
It is there today, a hunger I can’t feed.
So instead, I watch the leaves
and try to be the tree.
Growing outwards, into the earth and sky,
without taking a single step.
Hello! It’s been a while! Again! Don’t worry, I’ve still been blogging over on my book blog. (Here’s the link if you’re interested: http://lkeyser8.wordpress.com/) But I still want to post something on here every so often as well. Today I bring to you a few of my favorite things that have been filling my days with happiness this summer!
1. Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D: I don’t know why I haven’t been watching this! I’ve been catching up on this Marvel series that follows agents from a secret government organization as they try to protect the public from super heroes and villains alike on Netflix. I remember hearing that it was sort of mediocre when it first started but I have to disagree. At first, some of the episodes seem disconnected from each other, but give it time. Everything intersects and it’s so much fun! Funny too!
2. Badass lady athletes: Between the World Cup of Softball and the Women’s World Cup, I had a blast cheering on amazing athletes and will definitely be following both sports more closely in the future. Who knew I would find soccer interesting? Not me! But it’s kind of great!
3. Tor.com: I may have been living under a rock but I just recently discovered this site and it fills my nerdy little heart with glee. It’s got read alongs, news, short fiction, essays, and so much more. If you’re a fan of anything from Lord of the Rings to Captain America to Star Trek, this is the place for you. There seriously is something for everyone.
What are some of your summer favorites?
Until next time,